17.4.09

Seventh Son Of The Seventh Son

I realize that I must be patient. If I have patience, good things will come. I've seen what my future is, and it's nothing but good. It's the getting there -- the wait -- that is a struggle. It's hard to be reminded of what I don't have every day. Instead of focusing on what I do have, I worry about what's not there. I know it's only a matter of time ...

I'm not big on second chances. I know you don't often get them in life, so when you do, you grab onto them and you don't screw them up because while second chances are rare, third time chances just don't really exist.

I'm focused on that mission. Doing things in certain steps. I don't have time for decoration or cheap games. I don't have time to tip toe around people. I care about my friends, but if any of them decide to act like pricks, I'll drop them like a diseased goat. I can do this mission alone and probably will at some point, and that will be okay because the outcome is worth it.

I guess the question is: How much am I willing to lose to get what I want?

The answer is: Nearly everything. Nearly. To lose too much dooms the future. Nearly everything ... and I think it is starting.

4 comments:

elistia said...

logically speaking, i suppose if you are giving up everything to get what you want, then "everything," isn't worth much to begin with or you wouldn't give it up. sounds like you've got your eye on the prize. i wish you success on the quest.

noooooo sleep last night, codeine (back pain) and 2 sleeping pills and i'm still awake. this is ridiculous.

i'm goin to look for owls.

-Doug Brunell "America's Favorite Son" said...

Back pain is a killer. Suffering from it now.

elistia said...

Yes, back pain sucks ass. Even with the codeine. I'm still in pain but just got home from work...it's all about my recliner, Mafia Wars, doing some jobs and pickin some fights...probably until Monday morning.

-Doug Brunell "America's Favorite Son" said...

Fights are great. I slept on the couch last night, mowed and did yard work today. Sleeping on sofa again tonight. Just woke up again, actually. I may be dead for Monday.